Living in the Moment

Life can Pass you by... the question is will you let it....

Last week was a rough week for me. It's never easy to move and loose friends. I have moved so much in my last seven years and have had to come to the realization that people in my past and at my previous units for the most part where only need friends. It was hard to come to this relization because I may have needed a friend but was looking for an actual friend, where as they "needed" a friend in the aspect of needing someone to be friends with for the time being. It's never easy to find out people aren't real friends and to have to come to the grips with that fact.

I say in the most part because there are a few friends that are real friend that I have met over my seven years. Seven years is a long time to have only a handful of people who I really care to see and keep in real contact with, but I don't always make that decision sometimes it is made for me and I have to just learn to be okay with it no matter how much it may hurt for a moment.

Let me go back to last week. Last week was hard realizing that people who said they "want to keep in contact" and "can't wait to see you again" and then never responded when I brought up meeting up or hanging out. It was rough, it will always be rough, realizing someone isn't the person they betrayed themselves to be. But luckily those things passed towards the end of the week, which turned into an amazing Friday. I "had" a friend in Kodiak who was stationed on the AH (Alex Haley) with me (which I use the term had loosely because we never got in a fight or said we didn't want to see eachother again, we just moved on to differnt places) I hadn't seen her since a week after Chloé was born while she was on Vacation, I came in contact with her on mothers day and found out she lives only 25 min from me. So Friday, admist my crappy week, my Friend Kendra, my kids and myself met up for coffee. It was so wonderful to see someone who was a real friend. We both came to the realization how much we had ment to eachother and are so happy that we have eachother again!

Dwelling on the these things cause me to be in a sour mood. I didn't really feel like doing anything. This week I've gotten my act back together (of corse seeing Kendra and knowing I have a good friend close helped) So this week my kiddos and I have been having some fun!! Tuesday Tom went to Tampa to take his ASC certifacations.... I need to give a littls shout out to that he took four tests, A/C and Heating, Brakes, Electriacl and uh one more and passed all of them, I was told by him and his mom that most people don't take more then two at a time and usually have to take them a few times. He took four and passed them all first time... I'm SO PROUD OF HIM!!! So tuesday Me and the kiddos went on a little shopping trip to walmart just to get out of the house. Then Wednesday we met my Mother in law at Katz, which is the coolest resturante idea ever. It is a nice sitdown resturante with a kid play area in the back of the eating area (they even have a baby sitter there to help the little ones and make sure everyone is okay and following the rules) so the parents can eat and the kids can munch and play... and that's excatly what happend!!!

 My Super Yummy Gyro and Greek Salad

 Coco's Soft landing at the bottom a very fast slide.

 Tommy swinging on the rope swing

 Swung his body to get the momentum and everything



Chloé playing with the motion activated lights

Today I took the kids to the Clearwater Marina and Auquariam. They had a blast to say the least. Tommy is so intrested in sea life it was so awesome listening to him talk about the dolphins, turtles, sharks and everything else they saw. He has been talking non stop about how he loves dolphins and sharks it is way too cute.

 Tommy and Chloé watching a dolphin swim... he kept saying... mommy do you see the dolphin?!

 Looking at the Nurse Shark... Tommy's favorite was the sharks



Posing for a picture with a sculpted turtle... the both had such a blast it made my day....

Well that's all time I have with all the excitment of the day both my kids are whining and ready for bed... so adios!!!

It could be worse

Today is one of those... this morining is going so smoothly what could possibly make my day bad... that turned into when will Daddy get home so I can go shopping and get some retail theropy...

It started so well, I normally wake up when Tom is leaving and I have intentions to get up with him or relax for a moment then get up but usually end up falling back to sleep only to be woken 25 min later by the kids climbing in bed with me asking for strawberry milk and ceral... and this morning I relaxed for a moment and then got up, popped some cinnimon rolls in the oven and waited for the pitter patter of little feet... I fed the kids then they got to playing, they where playing so nicely together so I was able to catch up on last nights shows (which I love to do in the mornings while I drink a couple cups of coffee and watch the kids play in their play room.) It was beautiful. I decided we would go to the park to reward them for playing nicely and to wear them out....

That's when my morning turned ugly...

Tommy has been potty trained since December. He wears a diaper at bedtime only and usually I let him play a little while in the morning before I change him pretty much as soon as he puts on real clothes he puts on underwear as well, although he pees in the toliat like a big boy he has been much more obstinate about pooping in the toliat. However for the last five days I have been rewarding him for going in the toliat and so I have only had to change Coco's dirty diapers... well this morning as I was getting ready to change them he informed me he was "stinkey" I asked him when he became stinkey and his answer was the frusterating part... it was while I was picking out their clothing thats right he waited until he knew he was going to get changed and made a stinky after I changed him, I told him it was time to clean up so we could go to the park. He didn't like this and said he didn't want to go to the park then and went into the playroom and sat on the rocking chair. Chloe came and sat on my lap on the couch and nodded off in seconds and that's when I realized his obstinate behaivor was a product of a sleepy child. So after making sure she was soundly passed out in her bed I went into the play room and picked him up to put him in his bed. He woke up and asked to cuddle with me on the couch. I let him, but he wouldn't go back to sleep. So i finally put him in his bed and told him not to wake his sister and he needed to go to sleep...

Ugly to much worse...

I heard noises in their room and went to investigate and found them playing in their closet (now before you freak out that my kids play in their closet let me tell you why they do it. We have a matriss, a toddler/crib matriss since Tommy was still in the toddler bed it is about the width of the closet and their shoes fit on either end... they have made it into a fort and have toys and blankets and books in there, i normally don't like them taking toys into their room because that is what the playroom is for but the closet fort makes is so cute) however cute it was them snuggling together telling secrets Chloe had only slept about a hour and Tommy slept for about 20 min... not nearly enough time for a nap... And now both of them are refussing to nap... which means absolutly no mommy time to clean my house or do anything... That being said my day or afternoon that was Ugly in my book is still so much better then working... at least the two children who are trying my patients are actual children and not a few full grown men. And even though there are days like today where a few things just didn't go as planned I have to take them all with a smile and know that it's part of them learning... they are now currently eating lunch and giggling...

Guess my day wasn't so bad in retrospect if an extra stinky diaper, and the kiddos don't want to finish thier naps since they where woken up early is the worst part. Guess it's time to buckle down clean my kitchen and help them finish up their playroom! So we can go have fun at the park. (and i can still go to my retail theropy tonight)

SAHM....

Sometimes life changes and your ready for it, sometimes life changes and feel unprepared and scared, sometimes life changes and you rise to the occasion! I had to do all three of those things recently. After getting out of the CG I had it in my mind that I was going back to work. I have had a job since I was sixteen. I enjoy working, making money, and feeling important. During my senior year of high school I worked two part time jobs. I was prepared to exit the CG, I was over worked and under appriciated. I was done. I applied to starbucks to work nights. Tom didn't want me working because due to the high cost of daycare i would have to work nights and we would rarely see eachother. I felt as if it where my duty for our family for me to work. I recieved a call back and after setting up a way for my kiddos to be watched for the extra hour called the maneger back, she said if she still had a position she would let me know... I never heard back from her and I didn't bother calling because even though I thought working was the way to go at first I decided I would stay at home with my kids. I am happy to say it is difficult in other ways then working. Is it harder then working, no. Is it easier then working... maybe. Is it more rewarding then working... um... YES!!! Watching my beautiful babies grow is the most wonderful thing I could ever ask for!!! My life may have turned crazy topsy tervy but I LOVE IT!!